Inside out, upside-down twisting beside myself,
Stop that now, cos you and I were never meant to be
she stood staring at him in the middle of his apartment, unsure of what to say. He stared back at her, wishing she could understand. He took a step forward, she took one back. He smiled, she frowned. He laughed, she glared.
I think you better leave.
His words hung in the air. The smile dropped from his lips as she turned and left.
Its not safe in here,
I feel a weakness coming on.
All right then I can keep your number for a rainy day
Her footsteps echoed warily on the cold metal steps leading away from the building. Her mind reeled with the heavy pain taking over her head, her chest, her legs.
That’s when its set, no mistakes no misbehaving,
I was doing so well, can we just be friends?
I feel a weakness coming on.
She laughed to herself as she ran, legs burning, tears falling.
Its not meant to be like this, not what I planned at all,
I don’t want to feel like this
the apartment door slammed as he ran after her, finally coming to his senses. He was afraid he would never find her, the one person who he could never understand. Every action, every smile, every word that came pouring out of her confused him. Enticed him. In his arrogance he thought he could outsmart her. He was wrong.
Its not meant to be like this, not what I planned at all,
I don’t want to feel like this
her mind ran over and over itself in her head, tripping and dancing over memories and songs imprinted in her mind. She reached one conclusion.
So that makes this all your fault.
He turned another corner, people streaming behind him unaware of his distress. He could see her up ahead, pushing her way through crowds of unaffected people.
Inside out, upside-down twisting beside myself
he called out to her, desperate for her to hear him. She didn’t. But she was always one for pretending. He pushed harder, reaching out to her. She ran, darting between couples and buildings. She rounded another corner with him close on her heels. She sighed and choked back another set of tears as she stopped, him dangerously close to her. He reached out to touch her shoulder, to feel her skin on his just once more.
Stop that now; you’re as close as it gets without touching me,
Oh now don’t make it harder than it already is
she turned slowly, her eyes piercing his. He stared back, unsure of what to say, to make her understand why he did what he did.
I feel a weakness coming on.
The wind carried between them, highlighting the space between. Her hair whipped around her face. He longed to touch it again, to inhale its intoxicating scent just once more.
Its not meant to be like this, not what I planned at all,
I don’t want to feel like this,
No its not meant to be like this, not what I planned at all,
I don’t want to feel like this, so that makes it all your fault.
She stared back, watching his eyes
carry across her skin, just as they used to. His eyes glistened as he watched. She could tell he didn’t want to be standing in front of her, apart from her. She didn’t want it either. But it was for the best. For both of them.
Big trouble loosing control,
Primary resistance at a critical load,
On the double got to get a hold,
Point of no return a second to go
he took a step forward, watching her reaction carefully. He took another, and another until he was mere inches from her. He could smell her perfume, as it floated gently into the air. He longed to touch her again, but he knew she wouldn’t. Because he knew exactly how she felt, and that killed him.
No response on any level, red alert this vessels under siege
she watched him carefully, trying to comprehend his actions, his movements.
To a lower lever, systems failed, they’ve got control
he reached out to her, his hand finding its way to cup her cheek. He waited for her recoil, for her escape.
Theres no way out, we are surrounded,
Give in, Give in...
She closed her eyes softly, reveling in the feel of his skin on hers. Her mind instantly snapped back to her most hated memories. She thought of him with her... a woman who had no business with him. She thought of the woman’s smirk, his flustered explanation. She thought of how hard her heart broke that day.
Freeze, awake here forever, I feel a weakness coming on.
Her eyes opened once more, landing on the eyes of the man whom she loved. The man she thought loved her back.
Its not meant to be like this, not what I planned at all,
I don’t want to feel like this
she placed her hand on his gently. He smiled at her, content in her subtle forgiveness.
No it’s not meant to be like this, it’s just what I don’t need,
Why make me feel like this, its definitely all your fault.
She gently pushed his hand away and turned, unaware of his shocked expression. And she ran.
It’s all your fault
It’s all your fault
It’s all your fault
Saturday, June 30, 2007
Monday, June 25, 2007
The moment i said it.
The moment I said it,
The moment I opened my mouth
Her hand flew to her mouth, trying desperately to hold in the words that threatened to escape, dangerously low and sour in the air between them. He stared at her as she silently cried, trying to comprehend the string of words that came flying out of her mouth. He watched them float through the air and form sentence upon sentence, reconstructing and deconstructing themselves to form crueler, heartbreaking words. They finally settled into a set pattern, a pattern that caused his hand to fly to his cheek, as if he'd been hit across his face.
Let in your eye lids,
Bulldoze the life out of me
He stumbled forward, intoxicated on her words and his spirits. She took a few steps foward, arms outstretched to catch him. He pushed her away roughly. His head spun as he stared at her, a sudden clarity dawning on him. His eyes brightened and her eyes grew wide, her mind running alongside his. She grabbed his arm tightly and spun him around to face her.
I know what you're thinking,
But darling you're not thinking straight
He shook his head like a child, throwing off her warning as if it were meaningless.
Sadly things just and happened we can't explain
She pressed against him harder, desperate for him to understand. Fresh tears pricked the corners of her eyes, droplets collecting on the brim of her lashes. He stared down at the floor, his mind already set. He wrenched his arm from her grasp and began to head for the door, his stride quick and sure. She ran after him, stopping him just short of walking out the door.
It's not even light out,
But you've somewhere to be
No hesitation
No Ive never seen you like this,
And I don't like it
I don't like it
I don't like it at all
Tears pricked the corners of her eyes once more as his hands clenched in his pockets.
Just put back the car keys,
Or somebody's gonna get hurt
his eyes swam in tears, but he willed himself not to let them fall.
Sit down, come round, I need you now
Her grip lessened on his arm once she saw the tiny beads of water forming in his eyes. She watched as one finally quivered and fell down his cheek, and landed silently on her shoulder.
We'll work it all out together,
But we're getting nowhere tonight
Now sleep, I promise it'll all seem better,
Somehow in time
Her hand slid off his arm and replaced itself in his hand, hanging limply at his side. She leaned up and placed a soft kiss on his lips, waiting tenderly for a response. He simply turned his head, out of her reach.
Oh, I've never seen you like this
You're scaring me
You're scaring me
You're scaring me to death
She bit her lip and followed his gaze past the open door, out onto the street. Her eyes rested on the tree in the front yard, onto the swing that swayed gently in the wind. the empty swing. Her glance followed it back to his again. She watched as another tear slid down his cheek. His eyes glazed over with memories, memories of the long summer days and cool autmn nights he spent with the one little girl he'd never see again.
I'm losing you,
Trust me on this oneI've got a bad feeling,
Trust me on this one
You're gonna throw it all away
With no hesitation
He glanced down at her to find her staring back, tears staining her cheeks. Without another word, he enveloped her in his arms, their quiet sobs fading into the night.
The moment I opened my mouth
Her hand flew to her mouth, trying desperately to hold in the words that threatened to escape, dangerously low and sour in the air between them. He stared at her as she silently cried, trying to comprehend the string of words that came flying out of her mouth. He watched them float through the air and form sentence upon sentence, reconstructing and deconstructing themselves to form crueler, heartbreaking words. They finally settled into a set pattern, a pattern that caused his hand to fly to his cheek, as if he'd been hit across his face.
Let in your eye lids,
Bulldoze the life out of me
He stumbled forward, intoxicated on her words and his spirits. She took a few steps foward, arms outstretched to catch him. He pushed her away roughly. His head spun as he stared at her, a sudden clarity dawning on him. His eyes brightened and her eyes grew wide, her mind running alongside his. She grabbed his arm tightly and spun him around to face her.
I know what you're thinking,
But darling you're not thinking straight
He shook his head like a child, throwing off her warning as if it were meaningless.
Sadly things just and happened we can't explain
She pressed against him harder, desperate for him to understand. Fresh tears pricked the corners of her eyes, droplets collecting on the brim of her lashes. He stared down at the floor, his mind already set. He wrenched his arm from her grasp and began to head for the door, his stride quick and sure. She ran after him, stopping him just short of walking out the door.
It's not even light out,
But you've somewhere to be
No hesitation
No Ive never seen you like this,
And I don't like it
I don't like it
I don't like it at all
Tears pricked the corners of her eyes once more as his hands clenched in his pockets.
Just put back the car keys,
Or somebody's gonna get hurt
his eyes swam in tears, but he willed himself not to let them fall.
Sit down, come round, I need you now
Her grip lessened on his arm once she saw the tiny beads of water forming in his eyes. She watched as one finally quivered and fell down his cheek, and landed silently on her shoulder.
We'll work it all out together,
But we're getting nowhere tonight
Now sleep, I promise it'll all seem better,
Somehow in time
Her hand slid off his arm and replaced itself in his hand, hanging limply at his side. She leaned up and placed a soft kiss on his lips, waiting tenderly for a response. He simply turned his head, out of her reach.
Oh, I've never seen you like this
You're scaring me
You're scaring me
You're scaring me to death
She bit her lip and followed his gaze past the open door, out onto the street. Her eyes rested on the tree in the front yard, onto the swing that swayed gently in the wind. the empty swing. Her glance followed it back to his again. She watched as another tear slid down his cheek. His eyes glazed over with memories, memories of the long summer days and cool autmn nights he spent with the one little girl he'd never see again.
I'm losing you,
Trust me on this oneI've got a bad feeling,
Trust me on this one
You're gonna throw it all away
With no hesitation
He glanced down at her to find her staring back, tears staining her cheeks. Without another word, he enveloped her in his arms, their quiet sobs fading into the night.
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