The Walk

Inside out, upside-down twisting beside myself,
Stop that now, cos you and I were never meant to be

she stood staring at him in the middle of his apartment, unsure of what to say. He stared back at her, wishing she could understand. He took a step forward, she took one back. He smiled, she frowned. He laughed, she glared.

I think you better leave.

His words hung in the air. The smile dropped from his lips as she turned and left.

Its not safe in here,
I feel a weakness coming on.
All right then I can keep your number for a rainy day

Her footsteps echoed warily on the cold metal steps leading away from the building. Her mind reeled with the heavy pain taking over her head, her chest, her legs.

That’s when its set, no mistakes no misbehaving,
I was doing so well, can we just be friends?
I feel a weakness coming on.

She laughed to herself as she ran, legs burning, tears falling.

Its not meant to be like this, not what I planned at all,
I don’t want to feel like this

the apartment door slammed as he ran after her, finally coming to his senses. He was afraid he would never find her, the one person who he could never understand. Every action, every smile, every word that came pouring out of her confused him. Enticed him. In his arrogance he thought he could outsmart her. He was wrong.

Its not meant to be like this, not what I planned at all,
I don’t want to feel like this

her mind ran over and over itself in her head, tripping and dancing over memories and songs imprinted in her mind. She reached one conclusion.

So that makes this all your fault.

He turned another corner, people streaming behind him unaware of his distress. He could see her up ahead, pushing her way through crowds of unaffected people.

Inside out, upside-down twisting beside myself

he called out to her, desperate for her to hear him. She didn’t. But she was always one for pretending. He pushed harder, reaching out to her. She ran, darting between couples and buildings. She rounded another corner with him close on her heels. She sighed and choked back another set of tears as she stopped, him dangerously close to her. He reached out to touch her shoulder, to feel her skin on his just once more.

Stop that now; you’re as close as it gets without touching me,
Oh now don’t make it harder than it already is

she turned slowly, her eyes piercing his. He stared back, unsure of what to say, to make her understand why he did what he did.

I feel a weakness coming on.

The wind carried between them, highlighting the space between. Her hair whipped around her face. He longed to touch it again, to inhale its intoxicating scent just once more.

Its not meant to be like this, not what I planned at all,
I don’t want to feel like this,
No its not meant to be like this, not what I planned at all,
I don’t want to feel like this, so that makes it all your fault.

She stared back, watching his eyes
carry across her skin, just as they used to. His eyes glistened as he watched. She could tell he didn’t want to be standing in front of her, apart from her. She didn’t want it either. But it was for the best. For both of them.

Big trouble loosing control,
Primary resistance at a critical load,
On the double got to get a hold,
Point of no return a second to go

he took a step forward, watching her reaction carefully. He took another, and another until he was mere inches from her. He could smell her perfume, as it floated gently into the air. He longed to touch her again, but he knew she wouldn’t. Because he knew exactly how she felt, and that killed him.

No response on any level, red alert this vessels under siege

she watched him carefully, trying to comprehend his actions, his movements.

To a lower lever, systems failed, they’ve got control

he reached out to her, his hand finding its way to cup her cheek. He waited for her recoil, for her escape.

Theres no way out, we are surrounded,
Give in, Give in...

She closed her eyes softly, reveling in the feel of his skin on hers. Her mind instantly snapped back to her most hated memories. She thought of him with her... a woman who had no business with him. She thought of the woman’s smirk, his flustered explanation. She thought of how hard her heart broke that day.

Freeze, awake here forever, I feel a weakness coming on.

Her eyes opened once more, landing on the eyes of the man whom she loved. The man she thought loved her back.

Its not meant to be like this, not what I planned at all,
I don’t want to feel like this

she placed her hand on his gently. He smiled at her, content in her subtle forgiveness.

No it’s not meant to be like this, it’s just what I don’t need,
Why make me feel like this, its definitely all your fault.

She gently pushed his hand away and turned, unaware of his shocked expression. And she ran.

It’s all your fault
It’s all your fault
It’s all your fault